im 23...an architecture student from New Zealand...i dive, i snowboard, i rockclimb, i go to my friends events even if i have no interest in them, just to learn what they are about....i have a passion for jazz, carpentry, greek mythology and books that let me escape reality.....i like philosophy and perspectives that are different......im agnostic....and unique will always capture my heart.....none of this tells you who
i am, but im still trying to figure that out myself....



...these are my thoughts at the end, when no one else can listen - i am but mortal, in the land of gods, yet i still cant believe, this is my story, this is my life...

27th May 2012

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a vision

….. an old man, late one night is standing over a work bench chisel in hand, crafting something with infinite precision and care… 

…. he is lost in his work, quietening the voices of the world

… he has a look that is as old as the time he is lost in…

.. and in his eyes show, the pain of lifetimes, the joy in perfection, the scars of regret, and the peace of inner calm…

Tagged: who i want to bessb forgotten-retribution

27th May 2012

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i have a curse

… it is watching everyone in my life eventually leave…

23rd May 2012

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Map

it doesnt matter where you are or how lost you think you are… as long as you know where you want to be…. but its how you get there that matters 

21st May 2012

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20th May 2012

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I hate the way the world sees me

in all honesty, i am more lonely now than i have ever been… ninety percent of my friends are in relationships… and im happy for them… i really am, i dont resent them at all …but it sharply defines how alone i am

Tagged: parts of me are dying.. the rest of me is eroding away

19th May 2012

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“Dying well is easy. it only takes a moment of courage. It’s living well that I couldn’t do. What’s death compared to that?”

                                        - Kyler Stern, The Way of Shadows by Brent Weeks

19th May 2012

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at the death of hope

caught between breaking down and trudging along….

Tagged: yes i am miserable right nowyes this is me making peace at a disappointing existenceyes alcohol is not a cure but its a treatment

19th May 2012

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One cannot look at you without seeing happily ever after

Tagged: dear future girlfriend

18th May 2012

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i walk the crowded streets of this world ignored by all

am i but a ghost in this place, untouched, unseen, unheard

..yet i feel everything, the cold of shadows, the bite of the wind, the emptiness of solitude

i am in pain, and no one can hear my screams…

Tagged: literally all my friends are i a relationshipim i really that undesirable?lonely

10th May 2012

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I’d like to do something right for a change.

9th May 2012

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moondance

“Can I just have one more Moondance with you, my love
Can I just make some more romance with you, my love”                                                        

                                          …..this song.. these lyrics… echoes through me

8th May 2012

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8th May 2012

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CHIN UP, EYES ON THE HORIZON, ONE STEP AFTER ANOTHER..

.. Harden your heart - But do not forget why it bleeds…

29th April 2012

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my new self designed snowboard, called “Turtle Hex”

29th April 2012

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Eyes half closed

my words are whispers in the wind

my thoughts are shadows before the fire

my actions are mere scratches to the earth

my hopes are tears in the rain